there are good days and bad days

On a good day,i think of u and it feels like a forgotten dream
the kind you wake up from and wish you could go back to sleep so you can continue it,

On a good day,i think of you and i get that feeling,you know,
the kind you get when you wake up on a rainy day and you start
to get angry,only to realize that it a Saturday and you don't have
to go to work,so you curl up and go back to sleep with
a smile on you face :-)

The bad days are the worst,
when i think of you on bad days
i feel like my chest is split in two,like
there is a festering wound that won't heal

On bad days i wish i could tell you how loving you will
be the death of me,

At the end of each day i remind myself.....
there are good days and bad days.

Can i tell your lips a secret?

I met him at a mall 1 day,we exchanged numbers. we would sms each other,finally we  decided to meet again. i had neva done this before,i don't know why but i liked him,i liked being with him. its like when i was near him,i would my soul quiet down,the buzzing in my head would calm down,just me and him."can i tell you lips a secret?" ,he asked. I wanted to say no,but why? why deny what i was already feeling? our lips met,ohhh...such sweet torture. i wanted him then,but somehow i walked away still playing that kiss in my head. Temptation...this must be how Eve felt like. The agony, the need,the ache...

 Now he is gone,all that is left is this pain in my chest,what happened? what went wrong? Would i so it again? why put myself through that? Why am i feeling like this? I hate the pain,wish i could sleep it away.

To the man i marry

To the marry; i cant wait for day you propose because i know i will play that moment over and over in my head for days that follow,i cant wait for the day you look at me an u realize that am the woman you want to spend the rest of your lyf wit as ur wife,best frnd,companion,confidant,lover and mother of our kid(s),i cant wait for our wedding day,the day we will b celebrating wit family and frends our blessed union b4 them an the eyes of God an all of heaven. I cant wait to plan our future together,i cant wait to take care of you and you me. Most of all i cant wait for the adventures we will have,the laughter,the pain,the thrills and the sadness becuz all of it will be worth it as long as you are by my side

Just felt like it....

They don't tell you how really hard life is gonna be,they cant explain the pain you gonna feel wen your "first luv" dumps you. They don't tell you how mean people are gonna be,haters! Sum will talk behind your back,some will hate your for no reason,grown ass men will prey on the young and weak,some will ask for special favors,some will judge you,some will deliberately spread lies about you,and no matter how much you try to,you wont understand.
They don't tell that boy you think is the one,that boy you "gave" yourself too,that boy who impregnates you is not your knight and shinning armor,and he aint a  fucken prince!
You will find out that gal who you think is your friend,really hates you,envies you and is probably hooking up with your boyfriend behind your back. Gals will pull you down,sisters will hate and some will feel insecure around you or you around them.
You will find out that perfect life you planned as a child,passing,getting married and having a family in a white picket fence will not necessarily turn out that way. They don't tell you that you will meet so many stumbling blocks that at tyms it will be hard to wake up in the morning,not knowing how to face the world as a failure.
But even though it seems like its the dark ages and the world is crumbling around know tht its not the end of the world and am here for you.

Bleeding heart

                                                           

 "My heart bleeds for you love of mine,

  my soul lost

can't you hear it calling?"